Okay...I'm going to be completely and totally honest. I'm struggling. I'm struggling spiritually and emotionally.
Why is it so hard for us to admit to others when we struggle? Isn't that why we have Christian friends?? So that when we are at our low points in life and we just need a little help we have someone we can talk to and pray with?!?!
I know the answer for me. Its a simple five letter word. Pride. Okay April....get a grip....you know what the bible says....you know what you have to do. Why does it seem so difficult?!?!
I just want Jesus. That's all I want. Jesus to wrap His arms around me and wipe my tears and lift me up. HELLO!!!... I have to LET him. I can WANT all day long but until I actually surrender myself and LET Him have HIS way I'll be stuck in a rut, all by myself.
I was watching a video clip of Joyce Meyer today and something she said really stuck out to me and I'd like to share it.:
Many times we pray for God to perform a miracle. A miracle of healing, financial relief, family and friend troubles, etc. etc. Most often, God will not perform this great miracle. He wants us to take His hand and walk through the valley with Him and let Him teach us and show us things we would never learn if we were just given instant relief.
This definitely got my attention. It changed my attitude and my way of thinking. I want to learn something through all of this Lord. Show me. I'm ready to follow you through this valley.